HELLO *
hahas . i'm post wors . now was lyk 4.24am . and i still couldn't sleep . so i decided to post . today went to school per normal having lesson . buts dont know what happen to me lols . i was feeling so damn freaking icy cold and keep sneeze . and my friend was so kind , lend me her jacket . thanks thanks . than i went sleepin for two hours . my hands was so cold like ice lols . after that went hme , took some medicine , than went to watch tv , bathe , and than daddy fetch me go to my aunt's hse and pray my grandparents . after that went to temple to pray . is like all of them were adults . me onli one teenager thr . so bored lol . and they all gossips here and thr . i was so bored . my cousin was all workin , study , me so terrible . haiis . from 3pm reach there , makan , than sit there till 5 plus than my cousin one by one come back . i went to ask for permission from auntie to let me use computer to online . so i'm not so bored . and thr is nth differences lol . still so bored . no one chat with me . and i was lyk , daydreaming at thr in the room . so lonely . haii .

finally . it's was night . thinking " YES " going hme soon , i'm so happy lol . but to my surprise my mummy ask my cousin to burn song for her . arghhs . hurhur ~ after that choose song for herr . was waiting ahead to go hme , from my horror , they gossips again . so long . iyoos , i wondering why so much thing to say one lol . nvm .

than he call me . ask me , actually i dont know what he talking was lyk so noisy at my aunt's hse , i heard he say " what you doing" , or maybb "where are you " , i was like answering him , i was at my aunt's hse , after that he say " ah" ? than i repeat again , he say nvm take care . lol . he was weird . lol . i wondering what he wants .

sometime , i really think before i post this post , the last post , i say abt him , i felt i was madness and so exagerating . maybb . i really dont know what should i do , ;(

honestly say , i really nvr stead or start a relationship before . as i scared i will get hurt . and i saw my girlfriend everytime cry to me . i was so scared abt that . so i ask my dad . for suggestion . he told me alot of thins . which i feel much better and think he was right . some ppl dont believe i really nvr stead before , but is true , i really nvr , i really hope if i really stead , i will want him to dote me more , and care abt me , love me more them himself , and i wondering who will be my first love . i scared if started , i really dont know what to do , my girlfriends was being hurt badly and i was lyk console them . but a few days ltr they got boyfriends and left me all alone . ask them acc me outs , they were lyk " sorry i'm busy " . and what so ever . hurhur ~ i really felt i was kinda stupid . stupid girl ~

anyway . what it was , i'm so blur . and i dont know why i dont have the urge to study .

i recently so moody . i hope i can find someone to talk too . sometime i also need advise . i always advise ppl . but no one advise me . if i ask my parents , they were lyk , just forget it , lol .

yeps . my cousin say when free , wanna bring me to the pub . i'm waiting lol . hahas . hope is fun de lol . hahas .

just now i was , lyk daydreamin and so bored . and i rmb i make izzad angry . so i went to talk to izzad . and he reply me . i thought he still angry with me . i was so guilty . shouldn't say anything . haiis . me was lyk so straight forwards say his thing . so i can say he is mad at me . but just now at msn , he say actually you dont have to apologise . but i felt i was being rude . so i shld say sorry . but now he say " please stop talking abt that " . so i must be good girl , stop talking abt that anymore .

and he told me he was sick . i hope he can get well soon . and hope he wun have headache and bad flu . hope he faster can get well . hope tmrr he is better . =)
and best wishes to him , good luck , hope you can get to the next round . "

although dont know him much . not even saw him perform before . haii . i'm so lousy and outdated .

i want to be not scared of height . and learn being flyer well lyk last time i use before in secondary school . dont know why i suddenly so scared of height . is it long time no do stunts already ? perhaps . maybb ba .

i'm gonna sleep soon already . nearly 5.21am . i wonder sat and sun where shld i go ? will anyone call me outs ? i'm so bored lol . at hme all alone . parents went out for gossips with friends . brother and sister also go out with friends . except me . all my friends was BOYfriend lol .

hope god bless me .
i hope so . ~~really bless blessssss me !