Recently , so many things happened .
So many stress about , many thought about , ponder about,
However , all i prayed was ,
everyday will be alrights has days go by .. =)

It's been times since I blog ..
For about 1 to 2 months plus ?
I also dont know ..
Laughs !

I'm really alrights .
I know you care for me , why can't you be nicer ?
Can care as if in a nicer way ?
gosh !
I'll just fuckingly save my breadth .
*#&*$^!@*(&
Ps , sorry for those uncivilised words .
I'm just boilling hot .

I woked up every morning ,thinking about where to run about again this afternoon .Something happens to flashed thru my mind making me confused .I've been so far ,so far in life but I never seem to have gained anything useful .My dad &mom has compromise my wrong path ,how much of naggings has never changed my mind .I only look back in disbelief after so long ,only till I've got my influential good friends that changed me utterly from bad to worse .From now onwards ,I'll be a repentant criminal .People out there may think I'm probably too sick in mind to have said these but I mean it .Everyone who had given bad comments on either my attitude ,my behaviour or anything that concern about me ,I've failed to make a visible changes on myself .Even I myself found discrepancies between the blogger me &the reality me ,I've never made those changes I've said /promised I would .Something would just cropped up in my mind ,telling me off that I can never be an apple in everyone's eyes ,I'm sucha poor loser .I cant accept myself &neither I would want to repent ,dragging my own sweet time thinking tmr would be better .I'm wrong ,totally wrong .I seems like a person who will appeal to discriminating friends &enemies ,just because I'm lousy .A small bad comment from other affects me utterly without any valid reasons .i've realised it after so long whats wrong with me ..To those I once had discord with ,give me time to change .Allow me to have pace of change ,I'll be brand new in a time :) I give you my words .I'm done with my matter close to my heart .

I'm just so lousy ..

I dont feel like blogging any further ..
everyday is JUST so SAME !!!
It' SUCKS !!!
FUCK !_l_