Shagged out.

I couldn't blame much as everyone change so do i , But I'm so disappointed in you..

I've been neglecting my blog for almost a month! If I'm not wrong :) Had been busy with my colorful schedule these few months, however, I love being busy. I've got no time to blog, to party, to sing, massage or even bother about my face. Is it a good thing or not? Life's simple now, like a workaholic, just that I've got no time for anything. I'm not whining about it now, instead I'm sharing how different my life has changed..

Shit happens after the good times..
I'm hating this moment always for this problem, I'm in ...
Is it Girls are always so fake always get conflicts? No matter how much they dislike someone, they'll tend to gossip about people around them? Doesn't matter who he/she is, forgetting about the good moments they had, the bad ones always remains... Admit it because you also behaves like this. Maybe for some apparent reasons when they got sick and tired of each other after such a long friendship?!

What if you tends to call your 'so-call-good-friend/sister' who kept making you like a fool in-front of the rest just because she's telling everyone she hated you, OMG! Because of some small stupid nonsense? And never consider that they had years of friendship since they were in primary school till now? Okay, this is the saddest part. oh my oh my ..

I thought thru last night.. why would things like this happens when both were doing just fine last weeks, a month ago.. And I realized, Girls are always like that, isn't it ? h aha and in fact like this did made me feel better :) At least I see her true colors, I'm not the only one whom she's fake to, I suppose there's a whole lot more in the circle of friends. Well, I admit I'm a little fake as well some of the time but not towards her and the few real ones, I did my part as a friend?
I'm trying to speak to you nicely and yet you said I'm finding excuses ,
scolding me a BITCH and fucker. oh yeah, all you know is only vulgarities?
Don't you know how to speak well?
Other than first thing coming out of your mouth is vulgarities :/
All you know is , "because i like mar , hahaha , bitch , i will not take your name off lol"
seriously, immature much?
I admit at times i also immature. Haha :) But she is different .. How immature I am i still have basic respect on others,
by showing my full name in your face book, your blog,
You think these will affect me ? :D
ahahas , NO, in fact finally I actually see how immature you're and how you treated friends when you had a new friend in face book just few weeks ago, and how fast you can change , abandon someone who is longer and knowing your character for 8 fucking years, sad to say , you still don't have the basic respect for me :) I still have, although you sms me with all your nasty words.
I still didn't wrote your full name in public or your pictures.
But Since you're happy with it , by all means..
Go ahead do whatever you want, how about I help you call reporters for you to announce to the whole world ? Since you like to let everyone know how much you hate me ?
But I'll not , Not because I'm loser , is because I'm not so childish as you are.
I can't be bother with such a person like you.
I don't want people to laugh at me because of these I have to announce to everyone ..
Since you hate me so much , why still bother to add me in your friend list? Is it to make me angry? Jealous? To see how great you're by dumping me aside and telling everyone how nice you're? Be with your new sister showing me new photos? Let me tell you , these isn't going to work for me , since you said you have tolerated enough of my nonsense. I'm trying to help you by deleting myself off from your friend list , so you won't be so angry whenever you happen to click on my profile. But you say I'm loser?! Oh GOD ! ahaha :D
Sometimes your words are so senseless, foolish, and absurd.
I think I should be the one who is utterly disappointed in you...

I hate to be malign about things which I've never did . Aren't suppose friends/sister should be more understanding than putting a fight with you when you're totally feeling down because of problems, and started to have fight with you because of what hi-bye normal friend?! nonsense?
Please come on, should i repeat myself again? You and I know each other for so long, like years , shouldn't you know my character like I do? I know, You just know that you need someone to care for you, go meet up with you, shopping, clubbing, talk nonsense, only care about yourself i should say.. & I never knew that never meet up with a person can cause someone to say something stupid, know why?
I told her my problems , yet she never be understanding. This fucking good friend of mine can already be so fake towards me, what about others? Won't it be the same?
Haha Don't be so assure of the answer though :)

Goods things always comes to an end ,I've learnt to accept friends like this . At least that friend of mine hadn't do me any harm like make me kill someone and caught in police case. Maybe everything can be healed with the help of time . Maybe I should look at things positively!

Several things happened within a month , not a good thing to be happy about .Couldn't everyday be like a lovely, happy go lucky ? With no misunderstanding , no hypocrites around and no conflicts .

My girls , My boys, I need to spare some time for other important friends .They might not need me but that doesn't mean the same for me .

I need a break from stress , sleep-less nights , alcohol and junk food .

I'm going to tone up my skin , it's getting bad nowadays .

Bye now ..


xoxo


p.s , i can't say i hate you, because my heart doesn't let me, but i honestly, don't wanna see you EVER again.