On 08 October 2007 ,

I lost the one of my dearest companion in my life .

That's my Beng Ann kor kor ..

I didnt went to see your offen during your stay in the G.H ,

It's like two months you been staying at there ,

& only I did went to see you was my dad told me ,

that you cant make it , and only I did went to see you on

7 October , I see how pain you suffer , due to the blood cancer ,

How I wish you were alright like last time ,

I'm Sorry .. When I get to see you , I didnt know what to talk to you ,

&& all I know is Wanted to cry , I regretted alot for not visiting you on my own when you were in the hospital this 2 months .

I'm sorry . I tell my parents say will visit you but i didnt do it .. I regretted alot ..

Now you had gone , I really miss you alot ..

I know you dote my sisters alot ,

Thanks alot ... You really very good to our family members ..

My dad had you this friend is our greatest honour ..

I like the way you were on lion dance , so strong and no illness ..

Years has pass by ,

You have been suffer from this disease & stay in the hospital for so long ..

Even your birthday you had to stay in there too ..

Throughout the whole 8 years i knew you ,

You were a really nice guy ..

Yet , now I can never ever get a chance to see you anymore ..

I miss your voice , smile & laughter ,

Your Feature will be forever lingering in my heart , so do my mind .

However , It's just happened too sudden ..

Let the time heal the wound & ease the pain .

Athough I'm not really close to you ..

But you are my Dad's close friend .

I also dont understand why when my dad told me you passed away ,

My tears started to drop non-stop..

& all the mermories , came back in my mind ..

I keep crying last night in my bed ,

keep thinking of you ..

& I remember before you passed away ,

When I sleep , I dream I went to your funeral ..

&& Now the BAD dream came true ..

I hate this dream ..

I dont understand why he such a good person yet had to leave us ..

Why the god never save him ? why the doctor cant save him ?

WHY WHY WHY ?

All my mind was hoping to see him again ,

& hope He can chat with me again ,

But now you've gone ..

I'll learn & accept the fact ..

Being positive is the only way ,

However , saying the word itself is so much easy .

Applying the way is the greatest pain .

I've learn a lesson .

Never take things for granted & never let the word ,

" regret" appears in my dictionary .

I'll always always be here , calling for you ,

May you hear me & rest in peace .

My dearest Beng Ann kor kor ,

No word can describe the terrible feelings .

Endness tears got everything replace instead .

& I really , miss you so ..

May my tears , Exchange for a better path for you .

BUT in my mind & heart , I'll always remember you ..

I really hope you can came alife now ..
Because I dont wish to see you at funeral ...
GOD . can you make him alife ? please ..
I dont wish him to leave us ..
I should pray for your healthy when you alife ..
But i didnt , I regretted alot ..
I really now pray for your return .. BUT is too late ...
What should I do ?
Is it my wishful thinking ?? =((

millon of sorry also cant bring you alife ..
BUT all i know is apologise to you ..
Sorry My dear Beng Ann kor kor ...