I admitted that I'm not a good friend .I'm borned here to create absurds reasons in everyone else's life . In fact , I can really die .

There's always so many misunderstandings in between everyone's life yet why isnt an understanding chap to be able to resolve misunderstandings in life ? People always thought . . . '' if I tries to explain , it'll make things worse '' . So what if you dont explain ,you'll still be awfully described throughout your surrounding's conversation . After thinkin so much , I still havent got the guts to face my ups &downs . And I'm sure that includes many other peeps . So I rather bang wall .

*You as my friend ,dont have to be so mean am I right ?? :(
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I'm sick of everything ,everything cropped up ! Ya ,everyone hates iris . Even me myself loathes her too ! SHE SUCHA BITCH ! sometimes I'm sick of being myself :'(

Donkey years back , we're still united as one . I miss those days though we were rather young but things was still pleasant . Everyone was busy with their boyfriends & their future boyfriends now . And of course , I'm the left out one busy with nothing .

I felt so useless all of the sudden . I think I've done lots of sinful stuffs which no one would understands & forgive but that stuff just dint get out of my head . I felt there's so many 'sorry' left unsaid , so many days left not united . I hate being iris ! Its so fake being me with so many fake friends outside . I've got nothing , really nothing . Those ones who one said they'll be beside me thru my up-s &down-s were also up to no good , where the hell they've gone to ? Ya , Im pathetic ! Cut the act , everyone is so fake :'(

I'm having hectic schedule these few days . I'm tired of everything , felt like giving up :'(

Take care everyone .So many words left unsaid , I felt I've got nothing left , I teared but will my sis ,my past future , friends &everything be back ??

I felt so lonely .